Wands Wands Wands. Point it at me, baby

13 Jun
Has anyone ever noticed that Voldemort from the Hp series would screech “NYYYYEEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHH!!!!”?

 i still think that the scene from hp7 and the deathly hallows where Voldemort was asking for a wand and along comes the awkward silence. i thought the scene was hilarious!

the last movie i ever watched was Indiana Jones and the crystal skull or the mummy 3. i couldn’t remember and yes, it has been that long. i couldn’t understand why you would need to pay a ridiculous amount for one person  whereas the same amount would merit you several bootlegged dvds. i can smoke in the convenience of my room too. and i can always press pause. going back to your seat after peeing always seemed sooo far away for me.


i saw the other week the preview of the Harry potter and the deathly hallows part two. i was so excited! i swear i would watch it on the big screen. but i still can get lazy hahahaha.




i am glad too that Voldemort’s quest for the deathstick/ elder wand/ wand of destiny has ended. Desecrating Dumbledore’s final resting place, the reptilian dark sorcerer callously grabbed the wand and oh so effeminately pointed it at the heavens, while the wand shot bolts of lightning, illuminating the dark, starless sky. i was even waiting for him to shriek but much to my dismay.


the wand has many uses in magick. it is the embodiment of a practitioners’ will.the wand is primarily used to amplify energy, obtain focus, direct, invoke energy among other uses.

it is also one of the things that i collect aside from tarot cards and statues. i time, a practitioner will only need one single wand to serve his purpose. i have no idea why i cant seem to get enough of it.  a friend of mine suggested that perhaps, i was sexually deprived and was so fond of the phallus. realizing his rather erroneous remark, he quickly rescinded his odd statement. i gave a loud “HA!” and smugly said, ” i think that is what you call, projection”.




i plan to have all the wands i am able to purchase nyahahahahahaha. a wand is usually made of wood, metal, rubber , or clay. Wooden wands have varying properties too that depend on the type of wood that was used.





though among all the wands that i have, i noticed that my wand of Yew, was the most obedient.

Quasi Grim Reaper: The Holy following of Santissima Muerte

19 May
i received a surprise visit from my office mates who wanted to have their cards read. i sighed before they came into our house, as i was only running into a 30 minute workout. i didn’t mind their visit actually. the heat is becoming too unbearable anyway. i worried about how hot it would get in the coming days. it may border on sweltering, to ridiculous. oh and i don’t charge for my reading. i just ask people to bring candles or incense for my altars. i don’t have any plans of becoming a full time tarot reader anyway. And puhleeeze. i fancy it as a hobby. Never as my fulltime career.
i advised both of them to light some black candles for Santissima Muerte or La Santa Muerte. Good thing that friend a has informed friend b how weird my room looks like. i asked both of them to get some black candles from my altar’s drawer and to place it at her feet. by her i mean Santa Muerte. and yes she is female. i asked them to bring white roses for her that after their petition has been granted.

there is nothing odd about death worship.You’d be surprised to know that her worship, though i think the countenance of the venerated image has a more masculine feel to it, is also celebrated in the good old Philippine islands. from langyaw.com. the said picture is taken out every Friday and leads the procession during the holy week.

The Catholic church has been unfair to renounce her worship as Satanic and to claim that her followers are cultists. All the damn media hype has been unfair in claiming that She is worshiped by the unacceptable lot of Mexico: the gays, prostitutes, the leaders of organized crime. The media should have also included that the followers of Santa Muerte were Catholics.
I truly feel that Santa Muerte couldn’t care less if you’re gay, or if you had to engage in paid sex or if you had to peddle drugs. I am NOT condoning drug trade, mind you. She just wants your love, loyalty and devotion. But isn’t that how Gods are supposed to be anyway? free from petty, oftentimes, hurtful human criteria?
On closer analysis of myself: i have always been a rebel. and Santa Muerte, being an unaccepted and unrecognized saint by the Catholic church, has always been enthralling for me. She never conformed and she never will. Perhaps she is happy being the unaccepted and unrecognized saint revered by those that are unaccepted, unrecognized, and most oftentimes ignored by society.
and as a famous prayer for her goes:

“Conquer my enemies, Santa Muerte
like you conquered Jesus on the cross”

“En Dios creo y en ti confío”
“In God I believe, and in you I confide.” 

My personal shrine in my room

i now have 9 images of the holy death. people are starting to get terrified hahahaha

although look at this odd mist. there were no candles or incense that were lit when this photo was taken. people have oftentimes claimed that my room is cloudy.
“there is this odd mist cloud in your room”

“well, the dead finds comfort in my room”

Eshu y Pomba Gira: The devil and the she-devil at the crossroads

18 May
I have always wanted to go to Brazil. Not for the Mardi Gras, but for Umbanda. A religion with similar roots to Santeria or Orisha voodoo. What can i say; I’m weird. On a weirder note, when you mention the religions all throughout the continents, Voodoo is always left out. Perhaps people find blood and animal sacrifice unnerving, or trance possessions to be an absolute hoax, or people have always equated voodoo with zombies. Thank you, Hollywood.
The movie “Woman on top,” is shot in Brazil and features Yemaya ( pr:Yemanja, Jhemanja, Yemaya,Yemonja). The divine mother, envisioned as a dark skinned, beautiful star crowned mermaid (i think she is the Starbucks logo though subsequent replies from local baristas proved a dead end), and watches over her children from her watery realm. She is implored for all kinds of maladies from conceiving a child, childbirth, marriage, and of course, Love.

I was told that sprawled along the crossroads of Brazil, aside from massive Orisha statues, are shrines dedicated to two of the most venerated deities in Santeria and Umbanda: Eshu / Exu and Pomba Gira. No ceremony can be started in Santeria without placating the two dieties. They are the link between the human world, and the divine. They are the first ones thanked, and the last ones honored. So at the beginning of a ceremony, the faithful offer to him first so that he will not disrupt the proceedings, and furthermore will carry their petitions to the gods. It is believed that if one sacrifices to him well, he will be fairly disposed to plead human causes before the gods.
On a deeper level, the fact that Exu is this universal agent of magic implies much more. Exu is the point of communication between the sacred and the profane, and as such, can be likened to the Greek god, Hermes, also known as Mercury (Roman), Thoth (Egyptian), and Odin (Norse). He intercedes between the people and what they consider to be their spiritual roots-an idealized Africa, or another dimension of the cosmos.
Exu is also the symbol of equilibrium-the axis of stability between humans and gods. Contrastingly, as the embodiment of equilibrium, by nature he is always in motion. One can liken him to a runner on a rocky road-always in danger of falling from one side to another, but completely steady at the point where both feet leave the ground and travel through the air. Although his behavior sometimes may seem vulgar, his essence is dextrous and clever.
In this role, many perceive him as a prankster-a kind of Brazilian Loki, the mischief-maker of Nordic myth. But his tricks are playful, not mean. He toys with human sensibilities and upsets the status quo because he represents the necessary power of disorder which must occur occasionally for one to be able rebuild on more solid ground. In this sense, he is comparable to the Tarot card, the Tower.
Exu’s and Pomba Gira’s dwelling is at the crossroadsand T-roads(?) which symbolizes his/ their aspect as the great communicator and expander of horizons. Exu stirs up action. The crossroads are where people and ideas meet, pass, and are exchanged. Things happen at crossroads: spaces open up and close down; new directions are taken. Thus, Exu is known as the ruler of intelligence, sagacity, and wisdom.
The name Pomba Gira comes from the Afro-Brazilian religion of Quimbanda. Within the confines of this religion for those socially marginalised, PombaGira’s attributes are strength and protection. She is a depicted as a dark skinned voluptuous woman with horns, wearing tacky furs and sequins, heavy gold necklaces (nipples peering quite perkily from underneath), and a massive six pointed star as a pendant. She was described as the consort of Exu, and associated with the Whore of Babylon- but actively worshipped and represented during celebration, rather than hated or lampooned.
She is the wife/consort of Exu, a trickster spirit that has in the past been mistaken for the devil. Again not to be mistaken for the Judeo-Christian devil. His images are usually represented as a devil looking man, infectiously handsone, amazing physique, complete with a full, plump, rock hard phallus. Eshu has his origins from Nigeria and Orisha worship, while Pomba Gira remains to be a purely Quimbanda, Umbanda diety.They are the tricksters. They are unadulterated lust, debauchery and primal nature. The divine pair shakes things up when you have been to complacent and lazy in your life. They are the crossroads. The apex of several possibilities. She is the protectress of the downfallen, prostitutes and the weak. She commands obedience and is considered to have a fiery constitution.
Perchance that you insult, sneer,malign, badger, or condescend on sex workers, you will, oftentimes at least, incur the fury of this fiery Goddess. She only possesses or mounts (saniban or sapian in the vernacular) transvestite or gay men and women only during her feasts.
Because she ‘serves with both hands’, an adage describing her flexible approach to how she treats humans, she is to be feared and revered. If you treat her with respect she will potentially grant you what you wish, however, if the compact is made and then broken she will unleash a surge of destruction that will leave nothing standing.
Exu and Pomba Gira perhaps, cannot be equated with an Orisha. Whatever he represents to you depends on your personal interpretation. If you believe him to be the agent of evil, surely he will rise to the occasion. If you think he is good, he will behave benevolently. If you see him as a neutral agent, again this chameleon will satisfy your expectation. Whatever Exu, or his female counterpart, Pomba-Gira, symbolize, is very much up to you.
It is this kaleidoscope of hidden depth and potential within the expression of the life world, here enfleshed, that is made manifest through ritual, tradition, and sacrifice, It is this thin veneer between the hidden and the seen, the apex of  reality and the possibility for exploration into the sphere of the invisible that defines the inspiration the Crooked Path is the course which we tread, to the faint-hearted it is a journey that one should not take.

Laroye Eshu! Laroye Pomba Gira!

My personal Shrine o Eshu and Pomba Gira:

 the forked branches that you see below are called Garabato and have been found in Nueva Ecija

Loveliest bones

15 May

These were the lovely bones that had grown around my absence: the connections — sometimes tenuous, sometimes made at great cost, but often magnificent — that happened after I was gone. And I began to see things in a way that let me hold the world without me in it. The events my death brought were merely the bones of a body that would become whole at some unpredictable time in the future. The price of what I came to see as this miraculous lifeless body had been my life.

The Lovely Bones
Susie, Chapter 23, Page 320.