Archive | June, 2011

Gone too soon: why did you leave like that?

27 Jun
in loving memory of one of the best psychics and mages that i have ever met, a lone poet, and an ever so loyal friend, love and light to you always. Punkin, the doors of my home are always open for you.

it only occurred to me that we never had our picture taken together. i never got the chance to see or talk with you for the past month.

one of the last entries on his fb wall:

He who loves more,
Is the inferior…
And must suffer.
–Thomas Mann

you never recovered from it. and if you wanted., i would be happy to make her eat magick.

i will miss you

:love and light always, dearest Punkin


Ori Yeye O: Most gracious mother Oshun

24 Jun
Oshun who is full of understanding.
Most gracious mother, Oshun
Most gracious Orisha.
One who has large robust breasts,
One who appeases children
With brass ornaments.
Onikii who knows the secrets of cults,
But does not disclose them.
One who has a cool, fresh tt11rne.
One who buries money in the sand.
The gracious mother, The Queen of the River
Water which moves sleeplessly.
One who gives healing water free of charge.
One who gives good effective treatment to
One who has neither bone nor blood.
Ayila save me!
One expects salvation from one’s deity.
I do not know how to save myself.
I give homage to Oshun Ashe

Oshun, oyeyeni mo… Oshun who is full of understanding,

O wa yanrin wayanrin kowo si… Who digs sand and buries money there.

Obinrin gbona, okunrin nsa…

The woman who seizes the road and causes men to run away.

Oshun abura-olu… Oshun the river which the king cannot exhaust…

One who does things without being questioned.

Ogbadagbada loyan… One who has large robust breasts.

Oye ni mo, eni ide kii su…

One who has fresh palm leaves, who is never tired of wearing brass.

Gbadamufbadamu obinrin ko See gbamu…

The huge, powerful woman who cannot be attacked.

Ore yeye o… Most gracious mother.

Onikii, amo-awo maro…

Onikii, who knows the secret of cults but does not disclose them.

Yeye onikii, obalodo… The gracious mother, the queen of the river.

Otutu nitee… One who has a cool, fresh throne.

Iya ti ko leegun, ti ko leje… The mother who has neither bone nor blood.

Oriki Oshun

“Mbe, Mbe ma Yeye” Exist, exist always mother…

“Mbe, Mbe L’Oro” Exist, exist always in our tradition.

Oshun awuraolu…The spirit of the river, turtle drummer

.Serge si elewe roju oniki…Open the path of attraction, mother of salutations.

Latojoku awede we mo…Cleansing spirit clean the inside and out.

Eni ide ki su omi a san rere…The maker of brass does not pollute the water.

Alose k’oju ewuji o san rere…

We are entitled to wear the crown that awakens all pleasure.

Alode k’oju emuji o san rere…

We are entitled to wear the crown that awakens all pleasure.

O male odale o san rere…The spirit of the earth that wanders freely.


Iba oshun sekese…Praise to the goddess of mystery

Latojoku awde we ‘mo…Spirit that cleans me inside out.

Iba oshun olodi… Praise to the goddess of the river,

Latojoku awede we ‘mo…Spirit that cleans me inside out.

Iba oshun ibu kole…Praise to the goddess of seduction,

Latojoku awede we ‘mo…Spirit that cleans me inside out.

Yeye kari…Mother of the mirror,

Yeye ‘jo…Mother of dance,

Yeye opo…Mother of abundance,

O san rere o…We sing your praise,


My Orisha Oshun statue from Brazil as featured in the second issue of  Monday Magazine. Statue is approximately 18 inches tall. Skirt is made of real cloth and metallic, mercerized thread

Voldemort: Morsmordre

16 Jun

“Mors” is Latin for Death, and “Mordere” is Latin for “to bite”.

Nagini represents Riddle’s immense fear of death. Being the last Horcrux to be destroyed, Nagini was very much Voldemort’s final clutch on to immortality.

Voldemort’s only true fear is death; not the deaths of others, but of his own death. To quote Rowling, he regards death itself as “ignominious”. He thinks that it’s a disgraceful human weakness, so if he were to see a boggart, it would most likely show his own corpse. This negative view of death is probably a result of his mother’s early death. Riddle just could not accept that if a person had incredible magical abilities, that they would allow themselves to prematurely die; he just did not understand.

The terror that he feels inside has often caused him to go to extreme lengths to avoid his own death, which is why he created Horcruxes. Even though the creation of these dark items dehumanized him and split his soul, he did it anyway. He did it even though he had to murder people just to create a single one. He also tried to find the Sorcerer’s Stone, and the Elder Wand, but was not truly successful at either. Some might wonder, if Voldemort is so afraid of death, why is he able to kill others at will so freely? Well, that’s because he has no empathy; zero, none. All other human life is meaningless to him. The fact that he can inflict death to someone, and in such a careless way, is one of the many reasons why Voldemort is such a horrifying villain. In many respects, he’s like Heath Ledger’s portrayal of the Joker, a “Psychopathic, mass murdering, schizophrenic with zero empathy” .

“Do not pity the dead, Harry. Pity the living, and, above all, those who live without love.”
Albus Dumbledore

Notice his weapon of choice, too. Voldemort will often torture his victims, but he always kills them using the Avada Kedavra curse. This curse is quick and results in no deformity or mutilation; there isn’t even any blood. It’s not so much that by killing others using this method, he doesn’t let himself truly see death, but it’s more like he’s flicking an annoying fly out of his face. Some fans have argued, if he let himself see the enormity of what he was inflicting, if he saw blood and gore, and saw the person slowly fade away, maybe he would think of them as real people. I’m not so sure about this, while it is still a pretty good point. However, I think because he has no empathy to begin with, it wouldn’t make a difference in his mind. Remember, he’s not afraid of other people dying, he’s just afraid of his own death. Voldemort is completely devoid of the normal human responses to other people’s suffering; he simply doesn’t think about about them.

“We really are talking about someone who is incredibly power hungry. Racist, really. And what do those kinds of people do? They treat human life so lightly. I wanted to be accurate in that sense. My editor was shocked by the way the character was killed, which was very dismissive. That was entirely deliberate. That is how people die in those situations. It was just like, you’re in my way and you’re going to die.”
– Author J.K. Rowling on Voldemort.

Why does one have to die? What happens when we die? Can one escape death? Questions like these are part of the intellectual history of the human race and are certainly present in literature. The themes of mortality and immortality are huge parts of the Harry Potter novels and are present in other fantasy literature as well; especially C. S. Lewis, J. R. R. Tolkien, Ursula K. Le Guin and Peter S. Beagle. To Voldemort, death is something extremely fearful and  immortality is something desirable. If Voldemort transcends death, then he’ll no longer fear it. However, Jo presents a counterexample with Harry Potter. Unlike Voldemort, Harry learns that mortality can provide more advantages than immortality, and because death and life form a cycle, without one or the other, life would be incomplete.

“After all, to the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.”
– Albus Dumbledore

By portraying death and its psychological effects on the living, Jo effectively affects the reader’s emotions. Sadness and grief brought on by the loss of loved ones touches upon the reality of our mortality, to which every reader can relate. Sometimes, having a fear or generally negative view of death can make immortality seem like a desirable choice. So, it is not out of this world to understand Voldemort’s fear and desire for such a power. The human race has often dreamed of immortality because very few people really wish to die. After all, immortality means not having to worry about death – the complete unknown! However, as much as one dreams about this, human beings can never really escape death; not even in Voldemort’s case. I believe this reality inspired Jo to come up with ways of accepting death and mortality, which she had Dumbledore, Harry, and many other characters do. It would not be like her to end with a pessimistic and gloomy message for her readers, and that’s why she’s an incredible writer. She successfully uses Voldemort’s desire for immortality through bad example and sends a message to readers that seeking immortality is not the answer to such a fear.

“It is the unknown we fear when we look upon death and darkness, nothing more.”
– Albus Dumbledore

Dealing with and facing death are strong central themes in these novels. Unlike realist fiction, bound by a need to explore real social conditions and our many limitations, fantasy literature can explore philosophical questions that transcend the realm of the real. So honestly, I’m glad Jo took a different route and did not portray death as completely fearful, a reflection of the general attitude of most people. Instead she tried to make sense of it by using many perspectives. Voldemort’s obsession with conquering death and his quest for immortality at any price become easy to understand. We’re all frightened and death is definitely something one might want to conquer. However, it is this obsession that ironically kills Voldemort in the end; Jo’s subtle explanation of mortality ended up being quite clear: Embrace your life because you must, but also because like Harry, you really have nothing to be afraid of.

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Like many successful authors, Jo’s writing is clearly influenced by religion, mythology, and other unique mediums. Nagini, Voldemort’s pet snake, and horcrux, has a very unique history. Nagini or Nāga, (Hindi: नागिनी nāginī) is a deity or class of entity or being found in Hinduism and Buddhism, taking the form of a great snake, specifically the King Cobra. In Hindi, the female version is specifically translated to nāgī or nāginī. Various hindi mythologies portray naginis as female humans to their waists, but having the body and tail of a cobra. Much art shows these creatures with beautiful faces; many stories have a mortal man being lured into the Naga domain by one of these snake women. In the novels, Voldemort intended Nagini to be a safeguard and useful tool to his immortality. Nagini is introduced in the first chapter of the Goblet of Fire, where Voldemort is able to communicate with her due to his ability to speak Parseltongue, the language of snakes. In Order of the Phoenix, Harry views Nagini’s attack on Arthur Weasley in one of his dreams, and even comes to believe that he was the snake. Thankfully, it was just part of his ever-growing connection with Voldemort. In the final book, Nagini devours Charity Burbage, a Hogwarts Muggle Studies professor, after the Killing Curse is used on her. Nagini is later creepily placed inside the body of Bathilda Bagshot by Voldemort, and uses the hiding place to trap and attack Harry when he and Hermione visit Godric’s Hollow to find clues about the remaining Horcruxes. Once Voldemort discovered Harry’s explorations with his friends, Voldemort places Nagini into a protective magical cage to prevent her from being killed; he then uses her to kill Severus Snape by expanding this magical protection. When Harry pretends to be killed by Voldemort, Nagini is released from the protective enchantment; however, a distraught Neville Longbottom takes Godric Gryffindor’s sword from the Hat and beheads Nagini, setting up the climactic duel between Voldemort and Harry Potter.

this is sooo cute!!!

Much anticipated movie:The beaver

13 Jun
A couple of days ago, i was able to watch a trailer of an upcoming movie starring Mel Gibson and Jodie Foster entitled; The Beaver.

Mel Gibson’s character is a depressed toy executive who adopts a hand puppet beaver, and another persona to cope with his depression. apparently, his wife kicked him out too. Jodi’s character is obviously very supportive. The beaver was his only means of primary communication. as the trailer progressed, he was able to make a fortune out of the said puppet. Jodi Foster’s character is seen in the subsequent shots as smiling and snuggling up to Mel Gibson’s character, obviously very pleased with the money that her insane husband has made. What a wonderful, ideal wife and person the character must be.I hate the character already.

I was intrigued with the film. i have always been fascinated with the things that make people snap and tick. we conjure all sorts of names for our maladies in an attempt to understand how our darker selves are working or how the mind and the person would adopt in order to survive. Remember the film Mrs.Doubtfire? Robin Williams was absolutely brilliant in that film. i remember too one of the scenes from the film where the judge smirked and in so many words, said that” your speech was good. although i think you’re a very talented actor. this person that you created presents a lot of possible problems that your family may face, you nutjob. get a shrink a.s.a.p.”

Had it been an actual person, i would have nominated Robin Williams / Mrs. Doubtfire father of the year award. Had i been the judge, i would have slapped Sally fields silly for being such as whiner.

there is a tolerable or blurred line between tolerable madness and insanity. I remember a story wherein one guy was asked to recite in class. he paused several times, muttered incoherent soliloquies, and was subsequently seen dancing and singing in the hallways. He was taken away from the school in a straightjacket. the reason why he snapped was never disclosed.

another snap of the year award movie scene was the red dragon. where Hannibal Lecter was obviously annoyed with one of the orchestra players for being out of tune. he flinched, with obvious, seething discomfort, and proceeds to serve the musician as main dish to his guests. I have always found Hannibal Lecter one of the scariest characters ever. He wins not by brute strength, but by sheer cunning.

in this time and age, practically every imbalance, every mental disorder has been given a name. not to mention prescriptive medication too. i wonder, are ll these maladies curable, or will it depend on the individual if he wants and can still, snap out of it?

Wands Wands Wands. Point it at me, baby

13 Jun
Has anyone ever noticed that Voldemort from the Hp series would screech “NYYYYEEEEEEEAAAAAHHHHH!!!!”?

 i still think that the scene from hp7 and the deathly hallows where Voldemort was asking for a wand and along comes the awkward silence. i thought the scene was hilarious!

the last movie i ever watched was Indiana Jones and the crystal skull or the mummy 3. i couldn’t remember and yes, it has been that long. i couldn’t understand why you would need to pay a ridiculous amount for one person  whereas the same amount would merit you several bootlegged dvds. i can smoke in the convenience of my room too. and i can always press pause. going back to your seat after peeing always seemed sooo far away for me.

i saw the other week the preview of the Harry potter and the deathly hallows part two. i was so excited! i swear i would watch it on the big screen. but i still can get lazy hahahaha.

i am glad too that Voldemort’s quest for the deathstick/ elder wand/ wand of destiny has ended. Desecrating Dumbledore’s final resting place, the reptilian dark sorcerer callously grabbed the wand and oh so effeminately pointed it at the heavens, while the wand shot bolts of lightning, illuminating the dark, starless sky. i was even waiting for him to shriek but much to my dismay.

the wand has many uses in magick. it is the embodiment of a practitioners’ will.the wand is primarily used to amplify energy, obtain focus, direct, invoke energy among other uses.

it is also one of the things that i collect aside from tarot cards and statues. i time, a practitioner will only need one single wand to serve his purpose. i have no idea why i cant seem to get enough of it.  a friend of mine suggested that perhaps, i was sexually deprived and was so fond of the phallus. realizing his rather erroneous remark, he quickly rescinded his odd statement. i gave a loud “HA!” and smugly said, ” i think that is what you call, projection”.

i plan to have all the wands i am able to purchase nyahahahahahaha. a wand is usually made of wood, metal, rubber , or clay. Wooden wands have varying properties too that depend on the type of wood that was used.

though among all the wands that i have, i noticed that my wand of Yew, was the most obedient.